My Dad got here safe and sound last night, although I was late to the airport to pick him up thanks to the stupid Boston traffic. I should have known really but for some reason I thought a trip down I-93 at 6pm on a week night wouldn't be an issue. I'm an idiot. Anyways, I left a message for him at the airport and eventually I go there to meet him. It was good to see him and he looked and acted just like I expected him to.
We went out for dinner and a beer and had a bit of a chat which was nice. Now my relationship with my parents is a bit odd. The fact that I can live 3000 miles away from them without any problem at all must tell you that. Yeah I miss them now and then, but not like a kid should miss their parents. And when I do see them, I feel awkward around them, like I barely know them anymore. I guess my mind is sub-conciously trying to remember them how they were when I was really young, when we were happy, and not the mess that our family eventually turned into. And my relationship with my Dad is very different to my relationship with my Mum. I worry about my Mum a lot. I feel like I am the parent when I am with her, like I need to make sure she is ok, and constantly worry about how she is going to act or what she is going to do. I sometimes just feel like I want to grab her and shake some sense into her, but I don't. My Mum and I do things like go shopping and the girly stuff. But when we don't do the interlectual stuff, like sightsee or anything because in the past when we have done that she just seems bored. It's sad because those are the things I love doing, taking in the beauty of how something looks, but I feel like she just isn't interested, and thats something that shows just how different her and I are. My Dad is the complete opposite. He loves the interlectual stuff, and some of the conversations my Dad and I have are the most stimulating and interesting conversations I have ever had. We talk about music, politics, history, geography, current events, the list goes on and on. And we will talk for hours. It's when I feel the closest to my Dad. Even when I can tell he is obviously pretty drunk, he still manages to hold a decent conversation. Last night when I picked him up he sat in the car on the way home from the airport and just marvelled at the Boston skyline in the sunset. This is something I do all the time. Just soaking up the amazement of everything around me. He appreciates all that stuff, like I do.
So although I am a lot closer to my Mum than I am my Dad, every time I spend time with him I am reminded about how much we have in common. It makes me realise just what I probably missed out on as a kid, not having him around during the most important years of my life, while I was forming the identity of who I was to become. I don't think I turned out bad in any way, I just wish I had had the chance to have a relationship with him like most daughters do with their Dad. Even after the years we spent apart I am still very much my father's daughter, and I just wonder what I would have been like if he had had more to do with raising me. I guess it's one of those things in life that one shouldn't dwell on, and I try not to.
So this weekend should definitely be fun. I have to work for a bit this morning but then we are going to go for a late lunch and then into Boston this afternoon and walk around the harbour. Then I'm not sure which way round we are going to do the weekend but on one day we are going to spend the day in Boston, and on the other we are going to head to the Cape. Then Monday a trip up to Maine to take in the Allagash Brewery Tour which should be a lot of fun. I have a feeling this weekend is going to go by pretty fast. I hope my Dad has fun here, I know I am definitely glad to have someone around who likes doing the stuff I like doing, it definitely makes me happy he is here.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
I AM MOVING!
It's official, I am moving at the end of September. I was completely in two minds about the whole thing last night. There were so many pros and cons for both options. But I realised that this apartment, despite the initial things I will have to deal with, is exactly what I am looking for. Sure it might be old and dirty, and absolutely tiny, but the way the interior looks can be fixed, and the teeny tineyness, well, that will just add to it's charm.
So the basic layout is, you go into the kitchen. The kitchen is long and narrow with the stove and refridgerator on the right and the sink straight ahead. There is pretty much no counter space at all so I plan to put one, if not both my old dressers along the wall opposite the stove and fridge. This will give me some counter space and extra storage.
The bathroom is off the kitchen, on an angle between the sink and the stove. The bathroom is small but has a tub with a shower above it. After an initial bleach and scrub I am looking forward to a nice soak once again. The walls are painted a dark blue right now, which as there is no window in there, makes the room really dark. So I asked that they paint the bathroom to a nuetral colour before I move in. Actually I asked that he paint everything, along with the ceilings, which currently show the signs of smokers having lived there a while.
To the right of the front door is the biggest room, the living room. I say biggest room, but it is still only 12' x 10'. But a checked last night and my couch and chair should just about fit with maybe room for a small coffee table. I am planning on putting my new dresser from ikea in the living room and using it as an entertainment stand. I think it would fit in the bedroom but would leave next to no space to move in there. So I will put it in the living room. Luckily ikea make an entire range of the furniture I have in my room so I will be able to get a coffee table to match and maybe an end table with a big lamp or something. It is definitely going to be the cozy little country cottage living room I have often thought about. Did I mention the ceilings are wicked low. Not sure of the actual height but they definitely aren't standard height.
Straight ahead from the kitchen, through the living room is a really good sized laundry/storage room. There are hookups which was a big bonus, but unfortunately no washer and dryer, I will have to get those, but you can usually find some good deals on craigslist. I am going to see about putting up one of those storage systems in there that you can buy at home depot, the wire shelving units etc. This will give me space to store a lot of crap and also the over run of clothes that won't fit in my closets.
Off of the living room is the bedroom. The bedroom is tiny! It measures 9' x 10' at the widest part, but there is a closet that sticks out and takes up some of the room. When I went to see it she had her bed under the window with a dresser at the end of it. This completely filled the room. The bed was a queen, like mine, but I would arrange the furniture differently in there, with my bed on the wall facing the window rather than under it. This will also help with the heat in the winter. The bedroom has two closets without doors. She currently had a ratty curtain over the openings. I would probably take these down and just have the closets open. I keep things pretty neet so I don't see the point in closing in the already small space by adding a curtain. There is a small window in the bedroom, which again had a ratty curtain on it. I would like to get a nice curtain to match my brown and teal theme thoughout my whole place. Everything I have pretty much follows those colours. So hopefully I will be able to go to the Christmas Tree Shopp or Ross and find some cheap curtains and maybe some rugs too. The floors are all wood so I see that becoming a little cold in the winter. Will be nice to have some warmth under foot.
And that's it. As I said, it's very small, but perfect for one person. When I was there a couple were also looking at it. I can't imagine two people trying to live there. Once I have finished decorating and cleaning it up I think it is going to be a really nice and cozy little home. I am signing a one year lease but who knows what will happen after that. I have most of the things I need to get moved in and settled. My small shopping list will just comprise of a coffee table and possible end tables, some rug and curtains and eventually the storage system for the laundry room. Oh and I will also need to buy a microwave as I gave mine away when I moved.
I told my roommate today. She didn't respond yet but our other friend messaged me and told me she was sad so I know she got the message. I'll give her a call on my way home from work today. She is away right now so it's been tricky letting her know. I had to send her an email and then tell her to check it. I hated doing it that way but I had to give her a month's notice which will be this weekend. So that is done, now I can start planning my new home. Oh and Verizon Fios is available out there which is a definite advantage :)
So the basic layout is, you go into the kitchen. The kitchen is long and narrow with the stove and refridgerator on the right and the sink straight ahead. There is pretty much no counter space at all so I plan to put one, if not both my old dressers along the wall opposite the stove and fridge. This will give me some counter space and extra storage.
The bathroom is off the kitchen, on an angle between the sink and the stove. The bathroom is small but has a tub with a shower above it. After an initial bleach and scrub I am looking forward to a nice soak once again. The walls are painted a dark blue right now, which as there is no window in there, makes the room really dark. So I asked that they paint the bathroom to a nuetral colour before I move in. Actually I asked that he paint everything, along with the ceilings, which currently show the signs of smokers having lived there a while.
To the right of the front door is the biggest room, the living room. I say biggest room, but it is still only 12' x 10'. But a checked last night and my couch and chair should just about fit with maybe room for a small coffee table. I am planning on putting my new dresser from ikea in the living room and using it as an entertainment stand. I think it would fit in the bedroom but would leave next to no space to move in there. So I will put it in the living room. Luckily ikea make an entire range of the furniture I have in my room so I will be able to get a coffee table to match and maybe an end table with a big lamp or something. It is definitely going to be the cozy little country cottage living room I have often thought about. Did I mention the ceilings are wicked low. Not sure of the actual height but they definitely aren't standard height.
Straight ahead from the kitchen, through the living room is a really good sized laundry/storage room. There are hookups which was a big bonus, but unfortunately no washer and dryer, I will have to get those, but you can usually find some good deals on craigslist. I am going to see about putting up one of those storage systems in there that you can buy at home depot, the wire shelving units etc. This will give me space to store a lot of crap and also the over run of clothes that won't fit in my closets.
Off of the living room is the bedroom. The bedroom is tiny! It measures 9' x 10' at the widest part, but there is a closet that sticks out and takes up some of the room. When I went to see it she had her bed under the window with a dresser at the end of it. This completely filled the room. The bed was a queen, like mine, but I would arrange the furniture differently in there, with my bed on the wall facing the window rather than under it. This will also help with the heat in the winter. The bedroom has two closets without doors. She currently had a ratty curtain over the openings. I would probably take these down and just have the closets open. I keep things pretty neet so I don't see the point in closing in the already small space by adding a curtain. There is a small window in the bedroom, which again had a ratty curtain on it. I would like to get a nice curtain to match my brown and teal theme thoughout my whole place. Everything I have pretty much follows those colours. So hopefully I will be able to go to the Christmas Tree Shopp or Ross and find some cheap curtains and maybe some rugs too. The floors are all wood so I see that becoming a little cold in the winter. Will be nice to have some warmth under foot.
And that's it. As I said, it's very small, but perfect for one person. When I was there a couple were also looking at it. I can't imagine two people trying to live there. Once I have finished decorating and cleaning it up I think it is going to be a really nice and cozy little home. I am signing a one year lease but who knows what will happen after that. I have most of the things I need to get moved in and settled. My small shopping list will just comprise of a coffee table and possible end tables, some rug and curtains and eventually the storage system for the laundry room. Oh and I will also need to buy a microwave as I gave mine away when I moved.
I told my roommate today. She didn't respond yet but our other friend messaged me and told me she was sad so I know she got the message. I'll give her a call on my way home from work today. She is away right now so it's been tricky letting her know. I had to send her an email and then tell her to check it. I hated doing it that way but I had to give her a month's notice which will be this weekend. So that is done, now I can start planning my new home. Oh and Verizon Fios is available out there which is a definite advantage :)
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
New Apartment?
I think I found a new place to live yesterday. I was scanning craigslist, not expecting to find a whole lot, when I happened across an ad for a one bedroom apartment in North Reading, on a pond. They were asking $795 plus utilities. Now this would mean spending more money as I currently pay $800 with everything included. But I called the guy up and went to see it last night. I get there and the place looks nice, the drive there was awesome from work, hardly any traffic, and the street is quiet and peaceful. It turns out that the lady in the one apartment, the current landlords sister, wants to move into the apartment that is about to become vacant. So I view her apartment instead. It's very small and the kitchen is old and mis-matched. But it has everything I need, including a laundry room with hook ups for a washer and dryer. And here's the best part. Because it's smaller than the apartment I was originally going to see, and it faces the road instead of the pond with a deck, they only want $700 a month for it, plus he told me its cheaper to heat too. He called me last night and sent me the rental application and pretty much told me it's mine if I want it. And as a completely added bonus, he is willing to wait until October 1st for me to move in because I paid my current roommate a month in advance. Everything is just telling me this move is meant to be. Compared to where I live now it will definitely be a comfort shock. I have kinda been spoiled for the last three months with the luxury of our new townhouse. But this move would be a step in the right direction of becoming completely independant again. My own front door, my own bills, free to decorate however I want to, mine mine mine. So I am going to run a few numbers today but I am pretty set on this. I think I am moving! I set out a list of goals yesterday, and today I am fulfilling one. I think that's pretty good going if you ask me!
Monday, August 27, 2012
Time for an Update
It's been a few days since I updated this. Maybe that is because, sub-conciously, I am dealing with my inner deamons a little better, and feel that I don't need to air them out quite as much as I did before. I don't really know. I think it has something to do with the fact I am becomming a little busier outside of work and just not thinking about the things that upset me quite as much as I normally do. Anyways, I thought I would write today and see what came out.
This weekend was amazing! I went down to PA to see my friend perform, something I have been meaning to do all season. It just reminded me what I left behind in order to move here. I keep telling myself that I moved here to better my life, and culturally I did. But I am not really any better off financially and emotionally I am dealing with the same issues that I dealt with back in Allentown, only now I don't have the friend network to help me through it. The loneliness does get to me a considerable amount up here and although I do like living up here I miss a lot of aspects about my life in Allentown. I think if I just could have found a job there that paid better I may never have left. I am still struggling financially up here, not quite as bad, but if I have any hope of moving out on my own I will be back in exactly the same spot! I know I need to give it some time up here, once winterguard gets started I will make new friends and will hopefully start to feel some of the love I felt in TIA. I am a little concerned from past experiences with the circuits up here, about clicks and people's attitudes, but I hope that people will have grown out of that and that I can just have a good time like I always did working with TIA in PA.
This week is going to be a little odd. My Dad gets here on Thursday, and as much as my Dad and I have an odd relationship, I am looking forward to spending some time with him. He is family after all and that is something I spend a lot of time without. It's getting to be my favourite but also one of the hardest times of year for me. Thanksgiving and then Christmas to deal with, both of which I love, but come the actual day when I am alone and thinking about everyone else spending time with their families, it can be tough. But who knows, maybe come the holidays I won't be alone, anything is possible!
I am not really sure what's going on with the guy that I was seeing. We spent pretty much every night together last week and it was nice, apart from the last night. He said some things that showed me pretty much what he is looking for right now, and it is not a relationship like he claimed. To be honest, I don't know if I was looking for a relationship with him either. So I am not going to push the matter this week. I'll wait for him to text me. I have a busy week ahead and won't have time to hang out after tonight anyway.
I think I am finally ready for some me and my friends time. The people who really matter in my life! I am feeling ok about the situation with you know who, we have become pretty distant. We are still talking once in a while, but I think I am finally ready to let sleeping dogs lie. I am about to enter into a busy part of the year for me and in the small amount of free time I am going to have there are so many other things I want to work on for me:
This weekend was amazing! I went down to PA to see my friend perform, something I have been meaning to do all season. It just reminded me what I left behind in order to move here. I keep telling myself that I moved here to better my life, and culturally I did. But I am not really any better off financially and emotionally I am dealing with the same issues that I dealt with back in Allentown, only now I don't have the friend network to help me through it. The loneliness does get to me a considerable amount up here and although I do like living up here I miss a lot of aspects about my life in Allentown. I think if I just could have found a job there that paid better I may never have left. I am still struggling financially up here, not quite as bad, but if I have any hope of moving out on my own I will be back in exactly the same spot! I know I need to give it some time up here, once winterguard gets started I will make new friends and will hopefully start to feel some of the love I felt in TIA. I am a little concerned from past experiences with the circuits up here, about clicks and people's attitudes, but I hope that people will have grown out of that and that I can just have a good time like I always did working with TIA in PA.
This week is going to be a little odd. My Dad gets here on Thursday, and as much as my Dad and I have an odd relationship, I am looking forward to spending some time with him. He is family after all and that is something I spend a lot of time without. It's getting to be my favourite but also one of the hardest times of year for me. Thanksgiving and then Christmas to deal with, both of which I love, but come the actual day when I am alone and thinking about everyone else spending time with their families, it can be tough. But who knows, maybe come the holidays I won't be alone, anything is possible!
I am not really sure what's going on with the guy that I was seeing. We spent pretty much every night together last week and it was nice, apart from the last night. He said some things that showed me pretty much what he is looking for right now, and it is not a relationship like he claimed. To be honest, I don't know if I was looking for a relationship with him either. So I am not going to push the matter this week. I'll wait for him to text me. I have a busy week ahead and won't have time to hang out after tonight anyway.
I think I am finally ready for some me and my friends time. The people who really matter in my life! I am feeling ok about the situation with you know who, we have become pretty distant. We are still talking once in a while, but I think I am finally ready to let sleeping dogs lie. I am about to enter into a busy part of the year for me and in the small amount of free time I am going to have there are so many other things I want to work on for me:
NEW APARTMENT
SCHOOL
MORE MONEY
MOTORCYCLE
MAKE NEW FRIENDS
SPEND TIME WITH OLD FRIENDS
So there hopefully won't be too much time to stop and worry about things I cannot control. Here's hoping this is the breakthrough I have been waiting for!
But on today's agenda, new apartment. I have seen a few that I could probably just about afford. I have set myself a move date of November 1st so I'm going to make some calls today and see what happens. Wish me luck! Here's to a great Monday, a fantastic week and an amazing end to 2012!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Thinking Positive Thoughts
I am so tired of thinking negatively! So I am going to try really hard to do something about it. This whole thing thats been going on for the last 10 months has gotten out of hand and should never have affected me like it has. I almost feel like a lost an entire year of my life, my last year of my 20s, and I hate that it feels wasted. But when I catch myself thinking like that I have to stop and think of a few things positively about this year:
So plans for the next year or so (realistic plans):
Here's to a positive outlook and turning my life around for the last three months of 2012 and my last three months of my 20s. No one is going to take this precious time away from me anymore!
- I probably wouldn't have moved back to Massachusetts if he hadn't contacted me back in November. If that had been the case I would still be working a crappy job and living in a dingy apartment in a crummy town with no hope for my future. As much as I know I moved for the wrong reasons, at least now I see the hope of raising my children one day in New England, so they can have a similarly cultural start to what I had in life. Raising my children in the Lehigh Valley didn't even bare thinking about
- I have made some great new friends since moving here, and become closer with old friends
- I am living in a part of the world that I find exciting. Despite the difficult memories that I see every day, I love living here, and I know that I am where I belong
So plans for the next year or so (realistic plans):
- Make the most of winterguard season and my first winter without school for a while. At the moment I have three options open to me which are actually all possible. Teaching Blessed Sac Open and Acton High School and also marching in the World guard. It would take up ALL of my spare time, but I would be doing something I loved, so maybe that is worth it! We will see. I have a feeling I will end up doing just two of the above, just not sure which two yet
- Get through my 30th birthday and realise that it's not a huge deal. Yes a lot of my friends are settled down, having babies and growing up, but I need to remember that a lot of them are not. And the one who I get the most jealous of is struggling to build a life that he has huge doubts about. If that's what I am jealous of then I definitely have some issues. I may be a late starter, but I will get there. 30 is just a number!
- Get in shape. I know this is a goal that so many people have, but I really want to get in shape and feel good about myself! And I want to do it properly! I want to feel good about my health and the way I look. I need to start eating right and exercise. I know I can. I just need a plan and I need to stop being lazy!
- Go back to school and get my degree from UMass Lowell. I think that by going to a real school that actually has a real program for students like me will make a huge difference. I am detirmind to get my Bachelors of Science in Mathematics with maybe a minor in education. Projected start date right now will be the fall of 2013 but I am also going to see if starting in the spring might be an option. I just need to get my act together and apply!
- Save up some money. I applied for a part time job at Target. Obviously with the schedule I will be keeping if I do all the teaching I plan to do that won't be an option, but I need to figure out a way to make some extra money. Also I need to stop spending so lavishly. I know the summers are usually expensive, and if I'm at rehearsal all day on a weekend I won't be spending, but I need to make a concious effort to save!
- Just enjoy life a little more. I am still so young! I need to stop worrying about what others have and what I feel I am missing. I have a lot to be thankful for and I have achieved things others probably couldn't even dream of! I need to be thankful and proud of that!
Here's to a positive outlook and turning my life around for the last three months of 2012 and my last three months of my 20s. No one is going to take this precious time away from me anymore!
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Why Do I Do It?
As planned he called me last night. I don't know why I insist on it really, because just like always, I am left feeling crappy the day after. Speaking to him just makes me miss him even more, when after not speaking to him for a week or so I was actually not missing him as much as usual and was doing ok with the lack of contact.
So what did we talk about. Well I found out a lot last night. Here's a run down. Him and his wife did go to Maine on Friday, the trip that him and I were supposed to take. That sent pains shooting through my heart for a moment which felt terrible. I also found out a lot about the way his mind works when it comes to his marriage. Basically he does love his wife but he worries about the amount they have grown apart after only being married for three years. He said they had so much on common when they were young but now he has grown up and she has failed to. He told me she is a pot head which completely blew me away. To be thirty with a kid and still smoke weed makes me so angry. She doesn't deserve a child or a husband who works so hard and wants to build a family with her. He also told me that his father-in-law owns their house and it worries him should his wife ever kick him out. Basically all the suspicions I had of why he stays were true. He is trapped down there. He talked about how he would have no home, he would probably lose his job. He is scared that his wife would take most of his paycheck and that he would be left with nothing. I completely understand how he feels. I lost everything when I got divorced and had to start over. I was 26 when that happened. As of today (it's his birthday) he is 29 and the thought of having to lose everything and start over would scare the crap out of me too, especially as he has so much to lose. He has a house, a job, a kid, a nice truck..... all of that would go out the window. So I understand why he stays. I just wish there was a way for me to make him see that staying for those reasons will never fix things. He will be unhappy for the rest of his life. When things start to go bad you need to save all the time you can. I learned that the hard way and it seems that is how he will learn too. When I told him I was looking to buy a house soon he told me I should wait, rather than being excited for me. I thought this was odd but maybe it's his subconcious telling him that he wishes him and I could start a life together, some cute little beach front fixer upper on the south shore. It would be difficult, but with the way I feel about him, and as happy as I know we would be, money and property would only be small factors in the equation.
But all the time he feels like this I cannot go on breaking my own heart. I want to walk away but there is still that tiny part of me that clings on to the hope that one day he will realise that we were meant to be, and he will have the courage to walk away from a situation that makes him unhappy. But waiting around for that might just kill me. It's time to move on with MY life!
Hopefully this other guy I have started seeing will turn into something. I do like him a lot, although right now I am freaking out about getting close to someone. We have dinner plans tonight but as of right now I haven't heard from him since noon yesterday. Makes me a little worried but I'm sure everything is fine. We have plans and I would hope that he would tell me if anything was up. We will see how things go
So what did we talk about. Well I found out a lot last night. Here's a run down. Him and his wife did go to Maine on Friday, the trip that him and I were supposed to take. That sent pains shooting through my heart for a moment which felt terrible. I also found out a lot about the way his mind works when it comes to his marriage. Basically he does love his wife but he worries about the amount they have grown apart after only being married for three years. He said they had so much on common when they were young but now he has grown up and she has failed to. He told me she is a pot head which completely blew me away. To be thirty with a kid and still smoke weed makes me so angry. She doesn't deserve a child or a husband who works so hard and wants to build a family with her. He also told me that his father-in-law owns their house and it worries him should his wife ever kick him out. Basically all the suspicions I had of why he stays were true. He is trapped down there. He talked about how he would have no home, he would probably lose his job. He is scared that his wife would take most of his paycheck and that he would be left with nothing. I completely understand how he feels. I lost everything when I got divorced and had to start over. I was 26 when that happened. As of today (it's his birthday) he is 29 and the thought of having to lose everything and start over would scare the crap out of me too, especially as he has so much to lose. He has a house, a job, a kid, a nice truck..... all of that would go out the window. So I understand why he stays. I just wish there was a way for me to make him see that staying for those reasons will never fix things. He will be unhappy for the rest of his life. When things start to go bad you need to save all the time you can. I learned that the hard way and it seems that is how he will learn too. When I told him I was looking to buy a house soon he told me I should wait, rather than being excited for me. I thought this was odd but maybe it's his subconcious telling him that he wishes him and I could start a life together, some cute little beach front fixer upper on the south shore. It would be difficult, but with the way I feel about him, and as happy as I know we would be, money and property would only be small factors in the equation.
But all the time he feels like this I cannot go on breaking my own heart. I want to walk away but there is still that tiny part of me that clings on to the hope that one day he will realise that we were meant to be, and he will have the courage to walk away from a situation that makes him unhappy. But waiting around for that might just kill me. It's time to move on with MY life!
Hopefully this other guy I have started seeing will turn into something. I do like him a lot, although right now I am freaking out about getting close to someone. We have dinner plans tonight but as of right now I haven't heard from him since noon yesterday. Makes me a little worried but I'm sure everything is fine. We have plans and I would hope that he would tell me if anything was up. We will see how things go
Monday, August 20, 2012
I Passed!!!
This weekend I took my motorcycle riding class and test. It was fun, but when we got done yesterday lunch time I was glad that I got to go home.
But let's back up to Friday. Friday night I went over to hang out with the guy I have been seeing and met his son. I was so nervous. I haven't really been around kids that much in my life, so I never really know how to deal with them. What to say, how to say it, what is ok for them to say to me, how I should respond and interact with them etc. Well on Friday I think I did a pretty good job. I got there and he was very shy of course. But soon he warmed a little towards me and within a short time he was telling me all about his Thomas trains. We went out on the roof deck and suddenly one of the trains went over the side. My friend went down to get it, leaving me alone with his son. This was terrifying territory but his son acted like he had known me forever, and instantly I felt an affection towards him. I guess kids just have that affect on people. I instantly stepped in to the caring mother-type role, scared that he was trying to climb on the railings, but laughing at all his crazy antics. Then seeing how him and my friend were as father and son my heart just started to melt. Now I know I need to be careful here, not only could I find myself getting very attached to this guy, but now also his kid, and if I do, I need to be sure I am ready for this. I really don't know if I am but I can definitely feel something happening here. I am just hoping that going with the flow is going to work out for the best. After his son went to bed, we hung out and cuddled and just enjoyed each other. He wanted me to stay over again but I didn't think that was appropriate with his son there, so I went home. But I definitely fell asleep with a warm feeling inside that night.
Saturday morning was an early start. The class started at 7:30 with a brief classroom session followed by some hands on training. I loved it! It was tricky at first, learning how the bike handled and what it felt like to ride, and corner and lose your balance. But I soon felt more at ease and felt like I picked it up pretty fast. After lunch was the classroom session followed by the written test, on which I got 100%. It was an easy test so my perfect score wasn't too much to celebrate.
Saturday night I just hung out at home. I was exhausted! A quick dinner with my roommate and then an early night. Sunday morning I was back up early and out at the class at 7:30 again. Sunday was all practical, with some of the trickier expercises. The one that really threw me off was swerving. Just the sense of losing control made me really nervous. But I think I did ok. Soon it was time for the practical test and although it was the hardest exercises being tested I kept my cool and passed with only 8 points deducted. So I can officially now ride a motorcycle. Now I just need to figure out when and how I am going to get one.
Spent Sunday evening and last night over at his house again. We went to the movies and then out to dinner which was really nice. A good old fashioned date night. No set plans for this week as of right now, but I did say I would make him dinner one night so just need to make plans for that. Probably tomorrow or Wednesday.
But let's back up to Friday. Friday night I went over to hang out with the guy I have been seeing and met his son. I was so nervous. I haven't really been around kids that much in my life, so I never really know how to deal with them. What to say, how to say it, what is ok for them to say to me, how I should respond and interact with them etc. Well on Friday I think I did a pretty good job. I got there and he was very shy of course. But soon he warmed a little towards me and within a short time he was telling me all about his Thomas trains. We went out on the roof deck and suddenly one of the trains went over the side. My friend went down to get it, leaving me alone with his son. This was terrifying territory but his son acted like he had known me forever, and instantly I felt an affection towards him. I guess kids just have that affect on people. I instantly stepped in to the caring mother-type role, scared that he was trying to climb on the railings, but laughing at all his crazy antics. Then seeing how him and my friend were as father and son my heart just started to melt. Now I know I need to be careful here, not only could I find myself getting very attached to this guy, but now also his kid, and if I do, I need to be sure I am ready for this. I really don't know if I am but I can definitely feel something happening here. I am just hoping that going with the flow is going to work out for the best. After his son went to bed, we hung out and cuddled and just enjoyed each other. He wanted me to stay over again but I didn't think that was appropriate with his son there, so I went home. But I definitely fell asleep with a warm feeling inside that night.
Saturday morning was an early start. The class started at 7:30 with a brief classroom session followed by some hands on training. I loved it! It was tricky at first, learning how the bike handled and what it felt like to ride, and corner and lose your balance. But I soon felt more at ease and felt like I picked it up pretty fast. After lunch was the classroom session followed by the written test, on which I got 100%. It was an easy test so my perfect score wasn't too much to celebrate.
Saturday night I just hung out at home. I was exhausted! A quick dinner with my roommate and then an early night. Sunday morning I was back up early and out at the class at 7:30 again. Sunday was all practical, with some of the trickier expercises. The one that really threw me off was swerving. Just the sense of losing control made me really nervous. But I think I did ok. Soon it was time for the practical test and although it was the hardest exercises being tested I kept my cool and passed with only 8 points deducted. So I can officially now ride a motorcycle. Now I just need to figure out when and how I am going to get one.
Spent Sunday evening and last night over at his house again. We went to the movies and then out to dinner which was really nice. A good old fashioned date night. No set plans for this week as of right now, but I did say I would make him dinner one night so just need to make plans for that. Probably tomorrow or Wednesday.
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